How close is poverty?

[This first appeared on the KingsgateChurch.org website in September 2014] When I was thirteen years old I used to bake really large chocolate cakes every Monday evening. Our church hosted a meal for those who were homeless in the area and I got to make dessert for them! I’d head out every week and sit…

That moment when I try not to be a pushy activist.

I’m probably the one staring at you while you sip on bottled water, the one asking with raised eyebrows about the recycling and wondering where your Fair trade coffee is. We all know those people—those activist friends who tell you there are children working for 10p a day in horrendous conditions just to make your…

#LoveDoes

“Love Does” I saw this phrase written somewhere a few months back and it got stuck in my head*. It was one of those things that stood out on the page like it was written in neon lights – probably because it pretty much sums up everything I understand and believe life to be about….

Money Matters?

I live in a world where I can buy pretty much anything I want, and sometimes it feels like thats exactly what I do. I want it, I buy it. I think that’s quite worrying. Partly because the more I consume the more I realise that it doesn’t actually satisfy me, and partly because I…

Easter Wonderings

Bad things happen to good people. Good things happen to bad people. I know this to be only too true of life. Two years ago, on the Easter weekend of 2009, I was sitting on the side of a road in Zimbabwe.  I was crying out for justice to be done and feeling pretty angry…

One.

So as I get ready to go home and get back to life as I more generally know it, I am feeling a little overwhelmed. It is not in the least bit unusual I suppose. But my “fix-it” mind doesn’t cope well with knowing that I can’t actually fix it. The scale of the problem is huge….

Frustrations and Gifts

I’m frustrated. My flight was cancelled this morning. I’ve wasted a day. And now I’m sitting here in a completely drenched airport watching people scooping the water out. Feeling really frustrated. Somewhere inside of me a real sense of arrogance has arisen. “This isn’t good enough” “I expect more than this” “If only they would…

Bugs, Bugs, Bugs

Bugs, Bugs, Bugs EVERYWHERE. Would someone please put my dad on a plane and get him over here?? It’s funny how you can go from feeling like you’re some experienced traveller who can “handle Africa” one moment, to feeling like a 6 year old girl in need of her daddy because she got bitten by…

The Problem of Pain

I’ve been reading C.S Lewis’ “The problem of pain” while I’ve been away. (Yes Nate, I did borrow it from your bookshelf!) For the last few years, after dealing with mum being ill and also after following a lot of what has been happening in Zimbabwe, I feel like I have intensely wrestled with the…

Watertanks and Mushrooms

Yesterday was a day of meetings. All very helpful, but not so fun to write about. Today, was a trip to the North West of Rwanda, right on the border of Uganda. I was exploring options for future teams to come out and support the work of Moucecore (a Tearfund partner). One option: help the…

Aeroplanes and Communities

“The saddest thing about life in the UK is that for most people, if they want an egg or some milk they’ll go to the shops.” When someone said that the other day I didn’t quite get why that was sad – until i thought back to when I was little and I’d go an…

Missing Something

I woke up this morning feeling slightly dissatisfied with life. Do you ever get those rare moments when suddenly something clicks and you think “THIS is what life is really about”? I do. But they’re followed shortly after by more meaningless things that just distract me, and then I soon forget what it was that…